DeAtH foLLows Me***

can't control this feeling anymore, it's eating me. i almost said yes but how long can i resist him? it's driving me crazy.

i'm facing one of the major problem a person might encounter.... satisfying my need and curiosity vs. the things that i believe that i'm supposed to do.

this past 2 weeks is not good for me, i should not reacted this way... i just hope he didin't came back so things would remain as what they are supposed to be. i'm starting to loose my insanity because of his presence and no matter how i tried, i could not resist his charm. I had this feeling that sooner or later, i'll give IT up to him and somehow, i'm afraid about it because I knew that he can't give me any assurance that he'll stay. but i had this urge to do it with him, maybe because somehow I want to have him and keep him by my side.but this feeling scares me coz' i want him badly and i might get used to it and stuck with him. things are really terrible for me. really really confused.

whew, i'm startin to love my new job... kinda weird but it's kinda okey... i was wondrin' when and with whom i'm gonna apply it...lol.

they're both back with the same intention, one is falling apart while the other is breaking me into pieces. who's gonna be mine? who's gonna get my trophy? or i'm goin' to loose both of them at the same time... i'm restless.

 i miss that damn guy and i don't know if he feels the same way too... i like to tell him that i'm starting to fall into him but i might lost him or our friendship.

im back from my death bed and i'm craving for blood.

i'm tired, really really tired.

my life is such a mess.

i'm hopin' that tomorrow would be a special day for me. It should be, because 2moro is the day that God gave me life.

my wish, of course, new job....

wish me luck

yes... im back!

last day ko nah d2 sa ofis, quite sad coz' i'm going to miss my friends here but ganon tlaga, must move on.

i'm sad, in a real sense, not bcoz' wla na kong work but bcoz' of HIM... again in the nth time... super emote na naman me ngaun and again for the nth time, umiiyak na naman ako. mas madali kong nacondition ang sarili ko na wala na kong werk pero ang iaccept na hopeless na 'tong case ko , hindi ko alam if kelan mangyayari.